…long time no see…
It´s 2023 now and the last months of the year had been really busy, really hard and they brought a lot of things to talk about. One thing directly from the start, i won´t stop this blog, i just had really not enough time to write here. I wanted to really and i had enough reasons to talk to you, tell you whats on my mind, but there were too much things on my other websites, so i had to decide if i want to write and clear my mind or if i need some sleep. It´s really funny that i decided myself for sleep, cause my smart watch actually says that it seems to be that my sleep is that bad that i wake up with less energy every morning. I don´t feel that bad from my body but maybe my power is drained. I actually can not tell why this seems to be but maybe it´s those little things in my live that sucks everyday. But i just don´t want to start this first post in the year 2023 with only bad things, just let us talk about happy things, that made a good start in 2023.
First there is the fact that i quit my job. Yes i had no longer any reason to work for a time employement company any longer. Oh don´t think i am that smart or have balls of steel, i only quit cause i got offered a new contract from the customer that rented my work the last 10 years. In germany you need to leave the customer every 18 months for at least 3 months and that was a fact my new employer doesn´t want any longer, especially cause we got problems with off-work times everytime. Just imagine you have about 2 months only in overtime and 1 month in vacation cause you thought you will stay at home for these 3 months and you will need your off time for this season but then suddenly your employer finds a job where you are needed for 2 months. Now you came back to your customers company and need to tell them that you need to get about 40-50 days of additional vacation… oh they were happy everytime. Now they decided to stop this modern slavery and gave me contract, a real contract with no time limitations or such things, a contract with the complete money i deserve for the job i do, and it´s just about 40% more a year when you calculate everything. Just imagine actually i am earning roundabout 40K a year and now i will come along with roundabout 65K a year and i will have 5 days more vacation than last year and a couple of other goodies, there could be a lot more like i could finance an E-Bike with 2 of the 5 days extra vacation or other things. So i think that this is a step in good direction.
But it´s all i can actually say that it´s running good for me. Just yesterday i told my wife that 2023 will be a better year and i told here that she will need to change, treat me with more respect, stop thinking it´s funny to offend me and treat me like any idiot. It lasts around 14 hours from 4 o clock in the morning when we get to sleep till about 18 o´clock when we just made the rest-raclette from yesterday. We alsways have to much food for one evening so it´s a tradition to make 2 days of raclette. We are now 3 hours away from this first situation 2023 and i can´t really remember what she said but it was again a hughe offense. I don´t know when she started to think that it´s funny calling me an idiot, telling me i would be dumb or telling me everything is my fault, even the thingy she does wrong. I was really hoping that she would be able to just get one day without offending or finger pointing or such a thing, but i think i was wrong.
Maybe i think to much and maybe i should end this marriage as soon as possible…
Another thing she did yesterday, i don´t know i she just want to provocate me but i was really really near a point where i wanted to slap her in the face for this. She knows that i need to buy new hardware middle of february. We will need aroung 600€ for this, thats actually around 642 Dollar at the moment, and we actually have 0 money in our savings. So you can imagine that it will be hard to get this 642 Dollar in one and a half month, but it could happen. Due to the fact that i will need to get the extra money for working at christmas days and normally i should get a hughe bonus payment in january from my new employer, there will be enough money left for this, but thats all not really happened by now. The Problem is, that if i don´t spend the money in time i will have no second chance for i think around half year to a year and i need this piece of hardware for work. So if i am not able to buy this next month it will sabotage my work for a long time, maybe i will never be able to get this cover this in any way and i will not only loose much money, i will loose a lot of opportunities and chances, cooperations and much more.
So far you got it i think, i need to get this money, doesn´t matter how or it will really damage my work heavily for a long time. But my wife yesterday evening, decides that our eating table would be trash and we need a new one. OK it´s a 31 by 31 inch table and it costs about 35 Dollar, so it´s nothing that is really worth much. But now she wants a better one. Let me explain what happend….
At christmas eve we were at may sister in law´s home for dinner. another story i need to tell you about, i just remeber, it nearly costs my life, but thats worth a seperate post. The dinner was good and we had a good meal, better than i thought and with really less trouble i thought it would be. But there is one thing you need to know about my brother in law, he´s one of those childs that got born with the best chances and i think he really got everything he needed from his rich parents to use this chances. Don´t think i am jealous, thats nothing that bothers me, i have also no problem with my brother in law… yeah i don´t believe everything i hear but it´s ok, we all were young and we all told stories that noone believes. He´s a good one with a good heart and i really like him, but it´s important to know where his story starts. He´s a professional hunter with his own wood, he also has his own roofer company and got gifted a house from his parents. He will inherit much more sometimes but thats not the point. He was born into a family where you can make contacts, where you work with a lot of people and talk to a lot of people. He was born into a network his parents already build over decades, so he always get´s jobs in the family or jobs with customers of his parents and such things. There was one day he made the roof of an old farm and discovered some piles of wood on this farm. He asked whats going on with this wood and the owner didn´t know what treasure he had, he wanted to burn it anytime in the future. My brother in law is not dumb and asked if he could have this wood and the owner was happy to have more free room in his garden. This wood was 800 year old dried german oak wood, that was lying there nearly the complete 800 years. A wonderful wood i need to admit. My brother in law build an dinner table out of this wood that my wife saw and directly thought… i also want one…
The Problem is that this dinnertable is worth around 6.000 Dollar, only the wood without woodworking is worth more than our car, my gaming pc, our kitchen and our dinnertable together. But now she wants to buy a natural wood dinnertable. She already discovered some supporters at ebay that only charges around 300 to 400 dollar for the table plate and the foot she wants under the table also costs just 300 dollar. Yesterday she was so close to buy this pieces, but i ask myself with which money she wants to do this?
Am i so wrong when i think about that i need around 650 dollar to keep my business running and i am not sure if we could really afford this but she suddenly in jealous on her Sister that is married to a rich guy with a rich family that could afford a 50K wedding in november last year that she needs to ruin my business for a dinnertable?
Don´t get me wrong, i will never let her spend this money for a dinnertable when i need this money for my business, that won´t happen but am i too sensitive that this makes me angry that she knows we already have financial issues that urgently need to be solved and she thinks about buying something that we really do not need? Please tell me that i am not to sensitive when this makes me really angry!?
